I don't have any idea how to start this entry. Okei let just start like this,I woke up around 10am because of his text. I called him and start talking to him and saying that I really miss him and vice versa. After that long talk saying i miss u, blah, blah, blah,it suddenly came out on my mouth asking him "did you had any girlfriend aside of me when I'm here?" and he answered me "YES"I was surprised, imagine him cheating on me? damn him!.. I want to feel mad with him,punch him and ask him WHY? but i can't!. The only words that came out on my mouth was GAGO KA! I want to scream out loud until i lose my voice. I want to cry that time,i want to tell him that i hate him. I hate him so much for doing all those things to me. I feel that he didn't appreciate all the things that i have done for the sake of this damn relationship.. It's really unfair. I know that this relationship is hard but if both of you really love each other you will survive to this relationship..
We both cried and he realized how much he love me, i ask him one more thing should i trust you again? isn't it hard to trust him again if He himself was the one who cheated on me? he just answered me this just please give me one more chance and i prove it to you, i don't want to promise but I'll try not to hurt you again.
I really don't know now how i would feel. I have so many question but the answer are so few. All i really know is i love him so much and i don't want to lose him.
And I hope this was really a nightmare but it wasn't. It really happened today, but i know it was just a trial again to our relationship.
JUST GET OVER IT SANDRA. |
